Our Roads

 As we follow the roads that are our lives, we drift towards and away from each other. Sometimes we are close, our roads merge and we walk together down a peaceful path, gently winding through hills and fields. Then there are times when we are so far apart that I cannot see you at all. I yell and shout but there is no answer. The fields are replaced by deserts, and the rolling hills become treacherous mountains. Those are sad and lonely times.

 Then I see you, going your way, and it seems like you did not even notice I was gone. Like my presence is of little importance to you. The fields still roll in front of you and the hills do not change. I want so badly to ask you if you feel the way I do, but I cannot find the words to express the joy in my heart at the sight of you, or how wide the smile on my face is at the thought of you. It is your beauty and grace, your caring ways, all those things that make you who you are, that draw me ever closer to you. I know that you are the sun in my darkened world. You are the light that penetrates the clouds.

 It is not our path we are walking when I am with you. You are sharing your path with me, letting me enjoy the happiness that is your life and your company before I return to the harshness of my own. But that is how it must be, I suppose. Because there will be mountains in your path, and deserts for you to walk through. And when that happens, I will be your guide. We will scale your mountains together, and I will be your safety line, I will be your climbing tools. We will walk those deserts and I will be the water to sustain you, I will be the compass to guide you. And should you need it I will be the one to carry you through.

 And when it is over, when your trials have been passed and there are blue skies and green fields once more, I will walk on that path with you awhile.  Then our paths will separate once more, and I will continue down mine, climbing the mountains and walking the deserts, knowing that you may one day need me again. I am still sad and alone, but I am also determined and steadfast.