Tuesday, February 8, 2011

take it back

I'm going to try to take my life back. To actually be who I want to be and do what I want to do. It's going to be really hard in the beginning. I will be letting go of a lot to do this, and I can't say it will ever be worth it, but I cannot just let go of everything and gain nothing. So I will use this freedom I will soon have to its full advantage. I plan to better myself, I plan to work out, and learn an intstrument, and go back to school. These are goals I've given myself. But most importantly, I will be more of a friend to those people who have been my friends through it all. This is not a goal, some measurable thing that can be checked off on a list when it is completed, because it never will be completed. I have been someone else for a long time, and yet these people knew the real me and carried that part of me with them, as if I were a wounded soldier who needed rest to heal. I have rested enough, and now it is time to walk on my own two feet, and to carry any who need the weights lightened on there back. I cannot take it all away, but I can share the burden now, and I am stronger now from my trials. So, I hope my life is ready for me, because I'm coming to take it back.

1 comment:

Cynthia said...

Like I said, true friends don't disappear :) No matter how many days, months, weeks or years, true friends will always be there! They don't hold drudges because in the end, they too are not perfect. You have to go through life to live life. You have to experience to learn. No matter how many times you say you don't think you are the same person, I beg to differ! May have to dust off a few things, but it's there! You are a great human being! You have a huge heart, you go where others won't, you express what few will. You are unique and wonderful!