take it back

I'm going to try to take my life back. To actually be who I want to be and do what I want to do. It's going to be really hard in the beginning. I will be letting go of a lot to do this, and I can't say it will ever be worth it, but I cannot just let go of everything and gain nothing. So I will use this freedom I will soon have to its full advantage. I plan to better myself, I plan to work out, and learn an intstrument, and go back to school. These are goals I've given myself. But most importantly, I will be more of a friend to those people who have been my friends through it all. This is not a goal, some measurable thing that can be checked off on a list when it is completed, because it never will be completed. I have been someone else for a long time, and yet these people knew the real me and carried that part of me with them, as if I were a wounded soldier who needed rest to heal. I have rested enough, and now it is time to walk on my own two feet, and to carry any who need the weights lightened on there back. I cannot take it all away, but I can share the burden now, and I am stronger now from my trials. So, I hope my life is ready for me, because I'm coming to take it back.