I don't know why I was trying to heal something that you already declared dead. I wasn't trying to put things back to the way they were, I only wanted to take away some of the pain and save whatever I could. But there is nothing to save. There's no need to work through resentment if there is no relationship to feel it in. There's no reason to build connections if they lead to nothing.
I wanted to salvage as much as I could in hopes that it would help us get to a place of understanding, and maybe one day friendship. I was just putting band-aids on a dead bird, knowing it will never fly but pretending there is a chance it may hop.
I'm still trying to work through the pain I cause and the damage I've done. It's still there for me and I still have to accept it all and grow from it. That does not mean I have to keep dragging you into it though. If it is dead, then it needs to be buried and mourned, and then we have to move on.
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