choose

I want you to be with me. I want you to choose us. I have a desperate hope that you will look at me one day and say I choose this.

I know i failed you and us. I am choosing us every day now. In the quiet of the morning I close my eyes and reaffirm that I want it to be us, I want it to be you. I will love you freely, without any expectation. I will show you care because you deserve to be cared about. I will be your friend even if it hurts.

I will never ask you to choose us. I will not be the runner up for your love. Its one of the few things my heart couldn't handle. I need you to choose us, and to tell me you do. I will continue to live and support you even if those words never come, but if they do then we can truly start over. We can build a new life and relationship together.

I love you.

Love Always,

Me