Cruel Universe

 Why does the universe have to be so cruel. It gave so many signs to her that this was the way, that he was in her path for a reason. It gave her so much happiness and hope seeing him and interacting with him, and now I don't know how she is going to feel going forward.

 Why would the world do that? Give her these feelings and have him mirror them, just so he can pull away like that! It's not right. She deserves to be happy. I want her to be happy, even though it's not with me. I want her to be that giddy teenage girl again, falling hard and feeling free. I want her to smile and laugh and be light. She has been in a cage for so long, it is time for her to fly! So why did the universe do this. What are we supposed to learn from this?

 I was fine with the universe giving me all the shit. Poking me and prodding me with love here and reconciliation there, constantly assaulting my broken heart with things it could never hope to have. I was fine with it even when it knocked me to my knees, because at least on the other side of all that was her getting every sign that she wanted. So now what universe. What signs will you give now. I am starting to see lost love messages everywhere, all saying how I will never get you back but I will love you always, and I feel that to my bones. It shakes me like an earthquake because I feel like that is reality.

 What about her?! What is her reality now. It wasn't all wrapped around him, but he is an integral part of it, and now it is shrouded in confusion and longing and pain.  I know she is strong and he will get through this, but she has been strong ling enough! Now is the time she should get to be soft, to be loved and cared for. She won't let me do that for her, but damn it I wish I could.

 I'm upset with you universe, and I hope you will make it right with her. She deserves better than what happened.